Website Destruction

This idea is being merged with my primary blog.

See here:

http://anthonymychal.com/2011/12/who-is-anthony-mychal/

For now, it will stay up for seven more days.

What $110,000 in Student Loan Debt Feels Like

I wasn’t planning on posting an entry this soon, but higher powers wanted it otherwise. I’m lucky enough to come from a loving family. My father took care of most of my college paperwork for me. And because most of my loans are either deferred or in a forbearance period, I never really knew what kind of hit to expect. But today I found out that I owe $110,000 in student loans, a total that will only grow as I fail to pay them. Once my “preventative payment plan” ends, my monthly bill will be around $800.

Is this a joke? Is this what I’ve worked so hard for? My entire life has boiled down to me having the courage, determination, and will power to sit through pestering classes in hopes of getting a degree and being “set for life.” But that hasn’t really happened. Even worse, it’s only now that I realize that most career paths — the same one’s I worked hard to obtain — don’t interest me. I want to do something else with my life.

All I’m left with is a lifelong pile of debt. I can’t reverse this. Someone should have told me that. Someone should tell everyone that. The debt you accrue from student loans is there forever. I feel like a failure. I feel like all of my time needs to be devoted to work now. There’s no time to play. Words can’t describe how morose I feel. I have to work harder. I have to work smarter. I have to beat this.